Really?

It would be difficult to believe for many of you just how screwed up my life is these days. By screwed up, I don't necessarily mean really bad, just so many weird frickin things that it's almost like a soap opera, only I'm living it.

- My best friend, who was getting a divorce, isn't now. Back with the guy who was fucking their marriage counselor, who continues to stalk them. Oh, and I'm involved in that mix...I won't go into it.

- Old relationship(s) - really fucked up. I can't elaborate too much more - it is what it is. Sometimes I want to just pull my hair out because of my, and their thoughts, on this shit. Convoluted, yes?

- Profession. Really fucked up. Have the vision...the ability, but nothing working these days. Should I fucking starve or continue to pursue?

There is a lot more shit, but suffice it to say, the Boys are playing and I must get back and watch. Just had this thought to post something...

I'm thinking a radical change is in order.

Eventually

Yeah, I'm fucked. I have so much shit, and my mind is sideways...and...and...

I'll deal. I'll get right. And I'm just tired of the circle jerk I'm in. But we all know it will eventually get better...eventually.

Can eventually show the fuck up?